Punguk, 20-22 Maret 2008...

22 Maret
Nothing is more hurtful than finding urself that ur love one is never never never gonna come.
Nothing...
Nothing...


22 Maret
Ever lasting misery, as if it'll never come done. As if I dry my tears out. Please God help me out of these sucked things or let me die...


21 Maret
No more in love ever. I swear God, I swear. U never been given any love coz u fuck guy. Fuck love as fuck u. I swear God I never fall in fuckin' love. Each time in my life never be love. God please end my life before I am too old. I wanna die young. What u think my life for ? For suffering forever ? For nothing ? Please God, I am tired n pain. I need no this life, I can no more take this burden. I love U but to end my life. Please God...


20 Maret
He is present anywhere and it feels hurt. Fuck love. Such feeling that makes u wanna cry, makes u pain inside, like a knifecut. Such feeling of wanting to see someone n getting ignorance. Such feeling of powerless and wanna die. And I never let myself in love forever in my life. I never let myself coz I'll never find one. God I promise I'll never fall in my life. Let me go, let it go, let it died, let it burried n never come up. I swear God !